1.6.05
9:15 p.m.

i don't know what to do about you
i wish that you were mine.
i wish you felt like i do
but i know i'm wasting my time.

so i sit here filling in the lines
lines of wasted rhyme.
should i say goodbye?
help me please, i need a sign.

i don't know what to say
'cause i've never felt this way.
i know it's not okay
but these feelings seem to stay.

and i don't know why you're with him
when you could be with me.
there's such immaculate perfection
that i'd like to help you see.

i wish you had tried.
i try not to believe.
you lied and i cried
as i cut way too deep.

so don't say you care
unless it's the truth.
i want to be there for you
and this poem's the proof.

i think i just might love you
and yeah i don't believe.
'cause even i'm not sure
when these thoughts were conceived.

i don't know what to do.
and all i know is that
the feeling i feel towards you.
baby they're more than real.

when i'm not there
they say you don't care.
you'll never even dare
and it's a pain i can't bear.

i'm begging you.
hoping for a chance.
i love you so much
and it's more than romance.

and every new day
i'm wasting away.
now i don't know what to say
cause this never felt okay.

but where were you?
when i fell.
nowhere near close
as far as i can tell.

so when the phone rings
my heart sings.
wishing it was you.
but then my heart stings
cause it isn't.
and what am i to do?

then my heart bleeds
and cuts form around my wrist.
i know your the one i need.
so why do you make me feel like this?

everyday without you
is a day i want to die.
i don't know how to tell you
that my pain is not a lie.

the pain i feel.
in my dreams
the kiss you give.
so real, it seems.

the lie i live
when i'm awake.
i'm left with a heart
you seem to break.

and i don't know what to say
i wish that you were mine.
i've never felt this way.
but am i wasting my time?